The ghost from the girlfriend's past

The training was going ‘miserably’ fun, as it was my first time hands on experience on a colour Television. After getting back from the factory, I was sweating excessively in gym. I was tired to hell and the walk to my home back was looking like never ending. Finally I reached my home and the body ache forced me to skip my dinner (first in my lifetime!) and go to my bed with full throttle AC.

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“Mrigank actually I can’t give you my number...umm...I mean my parents don’t like me talking to boys. I am sorry.” said a beautiful voice, the person I had big crush on.

“Yeah! It’s OK no problem. So how can we be in contact after school?” I asked after a little embarrassment.

“We can be in contact through mails. It’s fun...I mean the anxiety of expecting a reply and then replying with a smile on. By the way, why didn’t you have lunch? Do you really take our fight that seriously?” she was playing my mind but that was a sweet feeling.

“Ya, you are a friend of mine rather the best friend here. A fight with you can leave me without my soul.” Now it was mine turn to play.

The conversation went on and on and then we left for home. After that we exchanged mails and then waited for the reply just like she said “anxiously”.

Then one day:

Sweetangel07- So... (This always happen when you talk face on face you have infinite things to say but while chatting nothing.)

Awesomeknight22- Hey can I tell you something? If you don’t mind...

Sweetangel07- Ya sure...why will I mind unless you say “I like you”...hahaha :D

Awesomeknight22- Ya thats what I wanna say “I like you” <3

Then a sudden silence....

Sweetangel07 has signed out.

I left sinking in my chair with my heart. ‘Shit! Fuck head look what have you done?’ shouted my mind. ‘C’mon man he did just fine. Why to hide your feelings?’ supported my heart. Now the chat has  begun between my mind and my heart.

YOU GOT A NEW MAIL!

I quickly opened it; it was from her. It read:

I don’t know what your problem Mrigank is? You always put me in a situation from which coming out is nearly impossible. Why you make things complicated? Can’t we remain friends only...as I like someone else.

It was over. I myself killed a beautiful relation of friendship. ‘Look fuck head, what I have you done?’ my mind was furious. ‘Shut up...you can still make it right...just apologize.’ My mind was right this time.

I replied back

Hey!
Look I am really sorry. I did not know what I was doing. I was very confused and that confusion was putting me on wrong lane. I had to tell you...can’t help L
If possible do pardon me...

Then the silence took on our friendship and everything seemed to fall apart. I never told about this to anybody as I feared about mocking stuff on this rejection and my emotions got buried somewhere deep inside my heart.

Until last month...This dreadful time came back to haunt me in my dreams...

Sometimes I laugh thinking about this as how easily I lost a friend which mattered to me most and then I think ‘I took a chance at least to express what I feel, some even fail to do this!’ and then again I go and explore my dreams...

I know this is dismantled and I even know that I could have written something else which you demand; but sometimes...sometimes it feels lighter when we share our regrets and we share what we feel about. So, never fear to express yourself on time.

As believe ‘A chance lost is a change lost’...

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